“roll with the punches” – an essay on diamond hands + meditation

It’s been awhile!

In the past few months, I’ve been lifting, options trading, taking on more responsibilities at work, and fishing more. Everything has been going well given the current state of our world and COVID-19. I’ve gotten back into options trading, which was something that i did HEAVILY back in March and April when the market dropped off. Since returning to the market, my top gainers have been $TSLA, $AMD, $AAPL, and $SRNE (although I’ve given up on biotech for the time being). Every day is a new day when it comes to day-trading, and it’s easy to get bogged down from the previous day’s losses. But as my friend told me back in freshman year of college:

“You gotta roll with the punches.”

-my good friend (you know who you are) 😉

That’s true for almost everything you do in life. A good example, were my Face-to-Face Client Meetings down in Phoenix, Austin, and Tokyo, shit happens. Someone forgets a flash drive containing critical content, or a freaking typhoon floods the train tracks and forces your team to be both stuck in the airport AND be delayed a day. We had to find ways to complete our mission and remain level headed. Similarly, day-trading is like that. My routine is as follows:

  • Wake up at 6AM to boot up my PC, ThinkOrSwim, and Discord. Hop on to my friend’s discord server to discuss the plays for the day.
  • Grab a bottle of water and make my GFuel. Ensure phone is on cellular data and NOT wifi, and the wifi is spotty in my room.
  • Market opens at 6:30 PST. Carefully watch my positions and sell if there’s any steep drop offs past -20%. Take profit when I can, but let the winners ride.
  • Work begins at 8AM. Start work and check calendar for any upcoming meetings for the day. Continue to trade throughout the day until 1PM PST.
  • Market closes at 1PM PST. In the final hour of the day (12PM to 1PM), carefully watch stocks rise during “power hour”. In r/WallStreetBets, Wednesdays are known as “WOO WEDNESDAYS”. The pump is real today (8/12/20). I’ve purchased and sold $TSLA 5 times so far and have taken serious profits off it. Stonks only go up.
  • After-Hours trading begins at 1PM PST. Watch the market every now and then to see how my positions are doing.

It’s a stressful time to day-trade. You watch your positions swing really hard up and really hard down, or sometimes just sideways (the trend-line travels sideways or up and down in small increments). It’s a great way to make a lot of money quickly AND to lose a lot of money quickly. Either way, I really enjoy day trading. But that quote always stays in my head. Keep rolling with the punches. It’s going to get hard and you’re gonna feel real sad, but as long as you keep taking the hits and learning from them, you’re going to be much better than you were before you took those hits. The meditation part of this, is to take breaks when you can. For the past 3 days, I’ve been driving to my local lake to do some bass and bluegill fishing. Even if I don’t catch anything, I enjoy the time to relax and just enjoy nature. Nothing beats a day on the lake.

Good luck everyone! I hope all is well.

-J, out!

i feel like i’m losing you.


I just got back from getting a root canal done on my upper left molar. Shortly after finishing, the dentist took an X-Ray of my entire mouth to see if there were any other problems/issues. He found 10 (albeit small) cavities that would need fixing, but nothing of immediate concern. Sitting there in that chair, I could hear my mom yelling at me and scolding me for my cavities, and I could smell the bubble gum laughing gas my old dentist applied on me during a pulling of a baby tooth. Now, I’m back home and feeling strange. The dentist was perfect. He’s a family friend and he did an amazing job along with this assistant. There was a TV above the chair which was playing Harry Potter: The Goblet of Fire, and the whole atmosphere was welcoming. The tooth feels pretty normal, but I know I’ll have to return to get both the crown completed and the other cavities fixed.


When I was talking to my girlfriend over the summer, I visited the dentist to get 4 cavities fixed on my upper and lower left teeth. She knows what happened and she understands that I have teeth issues. But now I’ve got TEN more cavities on top of the root canal I got today. What would she think of me? I don’t have many insecurities, but one of them would be being judged by the people I love. I’m afraid she’ll judge me for having bad oral hygiene and would break up with me over it. I don’t want to lose her–she means so much to me.


On my drive back from the dentist, my immediate thoughts went to: 1) what would she say to me?, 2) what would she think of me?, and 3) will she see this as a major red flag and dump me?. The whole ride home, I looked at myself from the outside in a third person view. My dad told me I’ve accomplished nothing in my life. My mom thinks all I do is play video games. I’m afraid my girlfriend will share the same viewpoints and leave me. It’s not that I don’t want what’s best for her; I do. I’m just afraid of receiving the pain of her judgement.

I think about K all the time. I wish she and I could be in the same state forever, but that’s not how things are happening right now. My thinking recently has shifted from having serious “love-goggles” to taking a step back and reassessing my life. What does she see in me? Why does she love me?

What if she’s got love-goggles on too and is blind to what’s really in front of her? If she took them off, what would she think of me?


I love K so much. She’s beautiful, smart, confident, and has a serious motivation to complete big goals. I try to support her as much as I can, but when things like getting cavities come up, I feel worthless. I feel like if I’m unable to handle myself, how could I possibly handle my girlfriend? We’re both individuals in this relationship, but we rely on each other for support (as needed). If I can’t support myself, immense pressure falls on her and someday, she’ll have to cut the dead weight. For the first time in awhile, I feel lost. I don’t know where I’m going.

I’m afraid the girl I love will leave me and find someone better. I haven’t felt this way before. K, I feel like I’m losing you.

NOTE: I get that this sounds like I’m bitching about “muh feelings”, and yeah, I am. I just needed to get this off my chest and it’s much easier putting it on Smiling Rain rather than writing this out in my journal. K, if you’re seeing this, just know that I have no intention of breaking up with you or ending our relationship. I might just be missing you too much compounded with some self-deprecation.

Breaking a Monotonous Routine (WIP)

Wow. I got off the phone with my mentor (D) and spent a good chunk of it asking him about how he operates day to day. “D” is a C-Suite executive at a local company and has been helping me to understand his workflow and life on a deeper level. These meetings have helped me to understand myself more and allow me to shift my focus on what I need/want to accomplish in my life.

A common theme this past week has been “Oh shit, I’m in this rat race and I don’t want to be here anymore”. What we discussed today was about the monotonous routine most people (including myself) goes through and how to break the cycle.

When I asked D how he broke it, he replied ‘I didn’t”. He went on to explain that after working at HP from the end of high school to several years following his graduation from college, he was able to land a management role and placed into several projects which prevented the growth of a monotonous mindset. Every day was a ‘new adventure’ as he put it. That’s something I tried to strive for when I first started at my current job, but I didn’t know how to keep it going without a routine to fall back on. Every day of my life has a routine and I’m finding that’s causing my eventual a) burnout and b) general unhappiness. I need to break that routine.

“If life is monotonous, everything goes by so fast and everything is the same. It’s the same as that mindset of ‘Same shit, different day’”.

D., 2.26.2020

My routine is as follows:

-Wake up at 6:30

-Get ready, eat breakfast, leave the house by 7:30

-Start work at 8, lunch at 12pm. Work till 5pm

-Get to the gym at 5:20pm, lift, and leave by 6:15pm

-Dinner at home at 6:45pm

-GMAT studying 7-9pm

-Rainbow Six 9-10:30pm

-Sleep by 11pm

This has been my routine for the past few months, and while it’s comforting to know I have a set routine, it’s also boring as hell. I need something to change up in my workflow and this is what D suggested:

  • Instead of working 100% all the time, work 95% and leave that 5% for a break. Give yourself a break and refuel yourself along the way to make sure you’re still getting work done without burning out for a long period of time.
  • Don’t push off work and get it done as soon as you get it. Easier said than done, coming from  a master procrastinator lol. I can pretend I’m busy working while I’m actually browsing Reddit. I need to get my work done as soon as it’s assigned. I’ll sleep better and improve my reputation. Double whammy.

My conclusion?

Find something that’s productive to do during my breaks. I enjoy analysis, so I do stock analysis when I can. This coronavirus outbreak is really intriguing as it’s causing a huge pullback in the market (DOW down by 1900+ points in 3 days). I’m curious as to how far the market will drop, etc. etc. Lot’s of work to be done. The most important thing, is to find a hobby or activity that will propel me forward yet keep me mentally stimulated. Video games are great, but won’t cut it long term or make a marked improvement in my life. Instead of living with a giant goal in mind, D suggests I live day-to-day with a hyperfocused mindset.

More to come.


confessions (part 1)

Any post titled with the term ‘confessions’ is a continuation of this post. It’s been a downer of a week—one of the worst ones I’ve had in a while. I’ve been toying with the idea of suicide on and off. It’s hard to keep moving forward sometimes. The few things keeping me together are work, constantly writing journal entries, my ‘memory’ Spotify playlist, and the Toast Crew. My friends and girlfriend are supportive and want to help, but I don’t want to burden them with my feelings. After all, it’s my life and they shouldn’t try and help. I’m alone on this journey.

Entry 1:

(This was a drafted message I planned on sending to a good friend of mine. Also reads this blog)

First: I’m okay. I’m not planning on doing anything stupid.

i can’t tell you how many times i’ve wanted to end my life over these past decade. The things that stop me from ending it all is mostly external. I can’t imagine what it would do to my grandma and family. Everyone but my dad would get hit the hardest. My cousin and I share a special bond and that doesn’t come automatically. We’ve spent a lot of time talking and we understand each other deeply. I don’t want to think about how you would feel if I killed myself. Sometimes I think it would be best if I just disappeared and ghosted everyone so y’all would forget about me and stop wondering where I would go/what im doing.

I don’t dare bring it up to C1 (since his dad is close with my dad and is a psychologist) and I don’t think C2 knows–i’ve never explicitly told him. I’ve thought about seeking mental care, but that’s a story i need to tell you in person. My dad found out about how I felt back in 2012 and every now and then when we doing something dangerous, he’ll bring up that memory and try to make sure i’m not having those thoughts. But he does it in a way of mocking like “what are you gonna do—drive straight into the wall? “I can’t hold on any longer….blah blah blah”. It hurts so much when he does that, but it’s something i deal with right now. I loved attending and living at college because it gave me the option of living away from home. My dad would tell me he missed me, but I was happy to be away (most of the time). But when I came home, we’d be good for a few weeks until the mocking came back.

I’m labeled as ‘uncoachable’ by my dad because I refuse to listen. I refuse to listen because when he yells at me, criticizes me, etc., I just want to hear nothing. Every day is a negative journey at home until I can get to my room, turn on my computer, study, play video games, and hang out with my mom and dog. I feel awkward when I’m alone with my dad. I deny him whenever he tells me loves me or is proud of me. I can’t understand why he says these things when his actions seem so backwards. Every time I hear from him, I feel a hole in my chest or a rock in my stomach.

College was easy. Life is hard. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about suicide at least once. Doesn’t have to be anything concrete (lol), just the thought of disappearing so no one would remember me. I don’t want anyone to worry about me so I tell them I’m doing well. That nothing is going wrong, and everything is fine. I’m on track to pass the GMAT and make it into graduate school. That I have wonderful friends and want to get married. When in reality, the fantasy of ending it all creeps into my mind every night before I go to sleep, or every morning when I wake up (or both).

I made a promise to BT that I would never hurt myself. I don’t want to break that promise. Would I be forgotten?

I’m crying at work. I’m in a lot of pain, but it’s something i need to sort out myself.


Nervous Breakdowns

I had a nervous breakdown yesterday. It was a weird experience where I was conscious through the whole process, but just felt off. I stared at my screen for a solid 5 minutes at work while processing what was running through my head. Thoughts like:

-“You’re not good enough to be working here”

-“You’re a waste of space and a detriment to your family. You suck!”

-“EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT. It’d be better if you disappeared or didn’t exist!”

Talk about an overwhelming experience. Going through these thoughts put me in a constant loop for 5 minutes straight in between processing checks and a minute writing project due at the end of the day. After the breakdown, I sat there for another 10 minutes going through the motions of work before I finally kicked back into my normal gear. Weird. I’ve never had a full on nervous breakdown like this before. Where my heart started beating ultra-fast, thoughts of my past racing through my mind, and where my self-esteem was back in the dirt. I needed an exit and FAST. But I stayed put.

I’ve read that it’s better to face your fears and face your weakness rather than getting into a habit of escaping them. Now that doesn’t apply to everything, but it definitely helped me here, as I made myself face this self-created wall of doubt, fear, and anxiety. It wasn’t until this morning, where I came across two documents I put together in the case I hit rock-bottom again (rock bottom will be discussed in another, JUICY post).

These two documents were the adrenaline “shots” that I took in 2018 following an ugly breakup and one of the deepest holes I put myself into. Crying every day and wallowing in fear of being unable to get over this girl turned into becoming more confident, getting stronger both physically and mentally, and learning everything I could. I read 6+ books on how to develop a stronger mind and how to set my life right (thank you, Tony Robbins). Every now and then though, I fall back into a ditch of self-despair and self-hate.

It just happens.

But it’s important as hell to get back up and keep moving forward. I took a long break from gaming and haven’t really looked back. I’ll play occasionally with my friends, but only with my friends AND if I’m feeling it. Music really makes a difference too. If you’re not already following my Spotify playlist, it’s on the home page!

Basically, I fell into a hard ditch where I was having a nervous breakdown at work. I got through it by re-reading my affirmations (which I haven’t done in MONTHS) and really calming myself down so I could think clearly. I love myself and I love what I’ve done. I need to remember that just because I make a mistake with one part of my life, DOES NOT mean that I’m worthless every where else. Remember: You are loved, and this (whatever the situation) will pass.

Hopefully I’ll be contributing more to my blog. The only way is up!

— J

[Raw] My experience with failure.

Growing up, I was always told to never make mistakes.

“Just don’t make mistakes. Failure is a HORRIBLE teacher–it’s just a step in the wrong direction” – Mentor

I was raised believing that mistakes were the ultimate enemy. If I failed, there was no return. Fail once and you’re done. When it gets down to the wire and the only way is forward, I’m cold. I get shit done. Nothing gets in my way when I don’t have time to think. But when I start to question myself and the things I’m capable of, I crumble. I begin to think I’m a faker, that I can’t actually do anything. Graduating from college and walking on the stage, I repeatedly thought “How did I ever graduate from here? How is it possible that I passed my courses?”. Every day I would wake up thinking I was the biggest idiot. There was no way my parents could be proud of me—even if they said so. I’ve always thought I was the odd man out from my social groups. It didn’t matter what kind of awards or competitions I won. It didn’t matter if I did well or excelled at a certain kind of field. Nothing was ever going to be good enough. I thought I was garbage. The bottom of the barrel.

Fast forward to the present day. I had just returned from a successful client event down South and had received multiple emails about how grateful my bosses were of my help. I was proud of myself to see this and put it in my ‘Wins’ folder. Even my parents mentioned they were proud of me. Riding on that high, I kept doing everything well. I was coming into work, dominating the day, and going home happy. But then today, something happened. While performing my daily check on a client website, I screwed up someone’s role. It was a small mistake but enough to warrant an email from the client requesting information for the mistake. I immediately stopped my work. I started to think about how many times I was warned by my parents to NEVER fail; failing is bad and is a step in the wrong direction. I started to think how much of a screw up I was. I was legitimately scared of losing my job. One small mistake could upend my whole career and prove to everyone how much of a fraud I was.

I got this message while I was facilitating another client’s meeting. Fortunately, this was a tele-conference with no webcams. No one could see me shuddering and feeling scared. I was terrified. All kinds of questions began to pop up.

‘What if my parents found out? Was my manager going to scream at me? What if the company loses money because of this? What if the client pursues legal action against me?”‘

All of these questions started to pop up and I just psyched myself out more.

Looking back, it’s not a huge mistake. Following one of my company’s policies regarding mistakes, I reported it to my manager EARLY. My manager responded stating that I did the right thing in reporting it early and that mistakes happen. Reporting it was probably one of the hardest things I’ve done during my time here, but it paid off. I don’t know what my manager is going to say or how my upcoming meeting with them will go, but I’m going in with an open mind. Especially in times like this, I need to embrace the uncertainty. 

More to come.


How to Win – the unconventional way

It’s been nearly NINE months since my last post. Whew, what a final year at school it’s been. Finally graduated with my bachelor’s degree and I’m headed straight to work early next week. I couldn’t have gotten through those past nine months without a little habit I picked up along the way:

Giving thanks either by saying “thank you” or showing it, regardless of the situation. However, it must be noted that you MUST be authentic when using. Without the authenticity, actually saying the words could come across as sarcastic, while mentally stating it could cause you to act ungrateful.

Even if it’s a crap situation, I still give thanks mentally to the adversary to make me think of different solutions to this issue. Through what seems like a losing situation, I can make myself believe that it’s not and quickly find a solution that would make it a real win. For example, I found myself in this situation while playing Head 2 Head in Madden 19. I don’t play video games often, but when I do, I try to win as much as I can by focusing on each game like it’s my last one. In this case, the opponent had much better players than I did (for you Madden players: he had a 96 OVR team and I had a 92 OVR team). After being down 14 in the first quarter, I found his patterns and quickly started to shift the game in my favor. I won by 7 by the time the game was over. By saying “thank you” to my opponent for giving me the opportunity to learn new techniques and challenge myself, I put the ‘problem’ in a positive light which encouraged me to find a solution.

Here’s an example that may resonate with you, but if not, relate it to a close friend. Over the course of a few years, my uncle would correct my grammar and tell me how poor of a communicator I was. Every time we met, I always felt like he was trying to make me feel bad, which made me not want to interact with him. Because of our lack of interaction, our relationship was falling apart. I wanted to improve the relationship but I didn’t want to feel sad anymore. I ended up using the same tactic above, where I thanked him every time he corrected me during our conversations. Finally, I took his advice, learned from it, and practiced it with him whenever we saw each other. Both our relationship and my communication skills benefited from it.

There’s a quote from the Lion King in which Rafiki says:

“Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either RUN from it, or LEARN from it.”

I was running away from my problems instead of focusing on them head on.

Moral of the story: learn to give thanks no matter the situation. Most of the time, wins aren’t instant. They’ll take time and a lot grinding to get the reward. There’s always a way to win.


Crater Lake

Kati Explores

When I told people I had never been to Crater Lake, I’d often get the answer, “Really?? But you’re from here, right?”  Yes, I was born and raised in the Pacific Northwest and for 21 years, had never seen Crater Lake.  I decided that I would change that this month, so I got a day off work, booked a hotel, and went to Crater Lake with my family!

IMG_1984 Wizard Island is actually another volcano that formed after the eruption of Mt. Mazama, which created Crater Lake.

We entered the park through the North Entrance and then drove the entire Rim Drive.  The entire Rim is only open until late October, so I think we made it just in time.  However, the Lodge closed 6 days ago, so we did just miss that.  Some highlights of the Rim Drive were the Pinnacles, the Rim Village, the Phantom Ship, and the Pumice…

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Early Risers–no, not the breakfast food

Question: How do YOU start a productive day?

No really, I want to know! If I show you mine, will you show me yours? 😉

Here we go.

Here’s what I’ve found with starting the day off right. It starts with the night before. It really starts with getting a good night’s sleep. At the end of my night immediately before I go to sleep, I listen to some soothing classical music (I created a specific playlist on Spotify for this reason) and journal about my day. Then and only then, am I comfortable enough to go to bed. I shut off all the lights, make sure there’s no lights coming from the hallway, and doze off. I try to go to bed anytime between 10:30 and 11PM.

Then the alarm wakes me up. Oh man, do I hate the noise of the “Apex” ringtone on my phone. But it gets the job done. I have several alarms set throughout a 15-minute period to ensure I get out bed (each spread out between 2-3 minutes apart). While it seems like overkill, there’s been times where I’ve been able to hit snooze multiple times and be late for work by half an hour. Therefore, it’s absolutely necessary. So, what makes getting up so difficult? I’ve found that when it’s cold outside and warm inside, it makes it nearly impossible for me to get up; it’s easy to become too comfortable. Enter the Unstoppable Routine.

This is my morning routine from my previous post titled ‘Rituals’. It’s designed to be easy to perform and can be done anywhere where there is a shower with access to cold water. Here’s the steps I take:

  1. Wake up and Make Bed
  2. Visualize the Day
    • What am I excited for? What’s my day going to look like? Any upcoming meetings? What’s due at the end of the day? What’s for lunch?
  3.  Journal
    • Three questions to stimulate my mind:
      1. What am I excited for?
      2. What am I grateful for?
      3. What am I 100% dedicated to completing this week?
      4. Physical activity:
        1. 10 jumping jacks
        2. 10 push-ups
    • The coldest setting on the shower
      1. Lasts between 20 seconds to 1 minute
    • Two reasons for this:
      1. I need to fix my hair in the morning (my hair gets really messy while sleeping)
      2. It wakes me up so well
  5. Change and Make Ready
    • This is paramount to a great day. Mom wasn’t kidding—breakfast really is the most important meal of the day.
    • 60-70% of my meal consists of veggies. As an Asian, vegetables are super common in my meals, so it’s almost second nature to eat veggies with any meal.
  7. Leave by 7:30 for work/classes
    • During the drive/walk to the destination, listen to some hype music:
      1. When applicable, I’ll listen to country and sing my heart out
      2. Bumping to rap (i.e. Drake, Logic, Big Sean, etc.)
    • If needed, caffeine can ENERGIZE the day
      1. I switch between but NEVER combine GFUEL and coffee
        • Coffee tends to hurt my stomach but makes caffeine consumption much more manageable than a powdered drink like GFUEL.
        • GFUEL contains 150mg of caffeine and can be overwhelming if you’re trying it for the first time.

Once I get to work, I do the following:

  1. Take a notepad and physically write out a To-Do list for the day
  2. List tasks that need to be completed and set a timebound deadline
  3. If needed, allow myself 10-15 minutes of web-surfing on sites like Reddit
    • This has allowed me to ease into work faster and stimulates my mind quickly

I want to know—what do you do in the morning? I’m always interested in seeing another person’s methods. I hope to read your responses in the comments below.

Have an amazing day,



Good Friends

Good morning!

Here’s a quote I found from a song I listened to that I thought was profound:

“Good friends,

You can count them on one hand,

They’ll never judge you,

Whatever your crime, crime, crime”

-Mr. Hudson, “Time

 There’s truth in this statement. I know plenty of people who claim to have many friends and take pride in that. I have no issue with that. The only thing that irks me is when people claim to have 10+ best friends. I could never wrap my head around that. How could someone have so many best friends? From middle school to the present day, only ONE of my friends has remained my closest friend, with a few others being added on throughout the years. Sure, some have been replaced as needed, but I never had a whole list of ‘good friends’.

Two months ago (I can’t believe it’s already August), I was blazing through books and taking notes on each one. One of the most influential quotes I took out of my time reading was by Jim Rohn, an American entrepreneur. He once said:

You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with”.

I found a ton of truth in this. The people I surround myself with now are successful, hard-working people, and I have made huge strides in terms of accomplishment in my life. I’m leading a much more fulfilling life than in the past few years of my life. I strongly believe my change in who I hung out with has dramatically changed the quality of my life. Here’s a few reasons to have a small group of close friends:

  • Hardships become MUCH easier
    1. Example: If I find out that one of my close friends is struggling in the same class as I am, I no longer feel alone in my struggle. I know that we can help each other out and excel in the class TOGETHER, and that helps to drive me forward.
  • Congruent Values
    1. Value congruency is paramount in the relationships I maintain.
      1. Values such as inclusion are perfect for forging new friendships and maintaining old ones. I try to include people in activities (even if I don’t know them) and when my friends do the same, I respect them even more.
  • Loyalty
    1. This is a huge part of my life and is often the one criteria point someone has to display to become a close friend of mine. This isn’t to say that loyalty is the ONLY point someone has to reach, but it’s right up there.
    2. This also includes protection. I want to be there to defend my closest friends whenever I can. Always. If I can prevent my friends from getting hurt (even if I get hurt in the process), then I completed my job. When my friends reciprocate this, it only increases their value in my eyes.
  • Increased Quality of Life
    1. Being friends with successful people has definitely had a huge impact on my life
      1. Other than my family, my top 5 has helped me to become a much more compassionate individual
      2. Used to never read. Now, I read more and find ways to implement that knowledge as fast as I can.
    2. My life has a solid sense of meaning
      1. Everything I do has a purpose. Now, I’m able to have clarity of what I want, how I’m going to get there, and people I can turn to for great advice.

Good friends are invaluable. Sure, sometimes the people you think that are going to be with you for the rest of your life turn out to be flaky, but if you hit it just right, life is going to be amazing. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from turning someone into a close friend, it’s this: SPENDING TIME WITH SOMEONE WHO SHARES SIMILAR VALUES WITH YOU DURING TIMES OF HARDSHIP AND STRESS WILL CREATE AN UNBREAKABLE BOND.

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